Yesterday afternoon at work I was mindlessly scrolling through twitter while on hold when I saw a BREAKING NEWS post that a doctor had been shot at the hospital Brian works at. (LAT report)
also, now you know where to stalk him during the day if you want.
It was an isolated incident in another building, so he was completely out of harms way (thank God), and I was able to get in touch with him right away so I didn’t spend hours barfing in my desk trash can wondering if he was the un-named Doctor (thank God).
So after a day where I …
- melted down over a small-bones (in retrospect) work issue
- beat myself up over having pretzels & chocolate raisins for lunch (and consoled myself with another serving)
- cried while updating our budget at how we’re doomed to rent until we move out of SoCal
- had a mid-life crisis resulting in getting one click away from registering for the GMAT (the study guides are still in my amazon cart)
… I scratched all my evening plans, and went home just to be at home. Talked over a simple dinner. Played with the dogs. Sat side-by-side on the couch playing Bejeweled Blitz (him) and Spider Solitaire (me, and yes I am stuck in 2001). Watched more tv than I do in a week, including all the shows Brian likes that I don’t.
Because it shouldn’t always be about 5 years from now – what this day at work means for my career, what skipping a 6 miler will do for my race 3 months from now, or where we’ll be when we can finally afford to own a home. Wishing away the week for the weekend or begging the time to pass until __blah blah__ big, exciting event.
Who knows what will happen between now and then, and what you’ll miss out on if your eyes are focused on the future instead of the right now.
Do what you can TODAY to chase your dreams, live in the moment, and soak up every second you get — nobody’s guaranteed tomorrow.
ironically gorgeous sunset last night – good reminder I’m lucky to have air in my lungs and live (rent) in paradise
healing thoughts to Dr. Gilbert’s family, friends, and colleagues, and may the suspect responsible get what he deserves